BLOODY PISSED OFF DAY!!!!


well, i donno wat the fuck is going on man.. she's late for work.. n gets moody.. n pick on me.. wat the hell is wrong with watever i say she will juz flare her bloody anger at me n pick on me..

she say i say things she don like n etc.. wat did i say.. if she don call me names should i get so upset over it?

is it because time flies.. really i have to let go.. im so tired.. but i don wish to let go.. i cant bear to give up.. i so so so so upset.. is it wat Z ("Z" not the real name) said is true?

sighz.. i really donno wat to do.

i really miss the days she were toking nicely to me.. the days she were so calm.. her words wasn't so harshy.. She is so different now.. sometime she really makes me feel that she is trying to kick me away by doing all this to me.. i wonder if my 6th sense is real or im thinking too much..

but she make me upset n make me happy.. i wonder wat is in her mind.. she can make me laugh after some arguement sometime.. she bring me up n throw me down.. she is juz like water-heater. can turn hot can turn cold..

sighz.. what shall i do? wat can i do again to see the same her tat i know in the past. tell me wat should i do.. im really so confuse.. i hate the feeling now.. n i hate myself. i have been trying my very best to control my temper le..

i know i shouldnt do that to her.. i shouldnt throw my temper n hang her call.. but y she have been treating me this way? wat can she gain by doing it? she is so so so so different from the past le..

i'm going crazy very soon.. i hate myself from loving her so much.. maybe to her im juz like a stupid fool.. juz like ppl say, 你是個笨蛋,笨到沒人有的笨蛋.

i too love her le.. 太在乎她了..

feeling so helpless n moody now..

To Andrew Lim, LeeTian: [That 她 is who, u both should know rite?]
如果時光能倒流,我要比那兩個深深傷害過她的人早出現. (Sorry fr nv tell u both about wat happen to her past, it's her personal prob i shall not say.)
保護她, 也不让她受到伤害.
我好愛她, 也很辛苦..
I donno wat i did, and i really donno how to say.. But i guess its all my fault.
and i'm really sorry that i made u both worry about my problem. n thanks for always be there for me when im upset.